I believe this will be my last entry.

I was told that I was needed but you see, he's got his emotions entirely mixed up. I almost feel as if he's flopped them with mine, because now it's never me clinging onto him. I'm not crying to him because I now longer have anything to cry for. I mean, I like to believe that I'm content, and I am the majority of the time just being with Tsumi. My really problem, I think, is that I am not able to let go of memories with how I once felt. It makes me want to mention so many things, but I wouldn't be able to find the words.

It's not like he called me or anything...I just went to him.

I think he knows that his words cut deep and matter most. I think he knows that I internally died when he told me he needed me. There are only certain times you are useful, you know. Amaris, you are like a comfort item, but it's alright if the overall goal is achieved, right?
I need to stop talking like this and lying, because I am so...so...overjoyed.

Here are some things I can get off my chest before I stop writting entirely:
Dear You,
I love you...like you wouldn't ever believe. I know there's this list, and I may not be your main priority even though you are to me, I don't mind. You have friends...you have so many friends and are just blinded by what hurts you so you can not see them. You're worthwhile, okay?
Every moment I've had with you is precious to me. I hold them close, somewhere inside and locked away so they could never be stolen for me.

Do me a favor and do this:
When you are stuck in a situation where you do not know what to do, don't base judgement after many people have told you their opinions. Your decision...is only yours, okay? Listen to what your heart tells you.
Do what makes you happy with yourself, okay?

Heh..I have no idea where I went with journal, ya'know? Either way...

You're my hero and...forever will be.